This year has been pretty frustrating, and let's be honest, an absolute shit show. And I don't really know anyone who thinks any differently. Even still, I remain positive. Why? What is the alternative? Shrivel up and die? Nah. I'm good. My drive to write, play, and record music is still here. That may surprise some of you since I go "silent" for months at a time. I apologize for not updating on social media as much as other artists do. I am still doing a lot of things, quietly, behind the scenes.
I've been working on a new single since July. It's not a "new" song, but it's one that deserves to be re-imagined. I brought in the co-producer from my album, "Seasons" to work his magick on this track as well. Bryan Gonzalez is not only a friend, but also someone with a vision that I share and understand. The last few bits are being added and the track will be mixed and mastered in the next couple of weeks. I'm planning for an end of September release.
And concurrently, production on "Lovesick" is beginning now! Again, I need to state that I'm going to take my time with this record. I can't say when it will be done, but it WILL be done at some point. I'm trying my best to plan out content to release in the meantime. I found an incredibly talented Art Director / Photographer for this project and new promo photos and album art will be borne of this collaboration. We're scouting locations and acquiring costumes at the moment. I am also hoping to create lots of visual art to accompany my music.
(I have abandoned plans to finish and release the "Peter Pan" music video. It will be archived, indefinitely, because life is sometimes complicated.)
I'm also continuing to write new music! I have found myself working on two records simultaneously. I've never done this before. I find myself pulled to work on many songs. I am also working up the courage to (mostly) produce my 6th studio album. So, it makes sense that I should start that now, to give myself lots of time to give it the attention and care it needs.
I remain focused on creating the best music (and visual art) that I possibly can, and not worrying about the rest. I do this because I am compelled to do it. And I will share what I've created in the best ways that I know how (that don't cause me enormous amounts of stress) and that is all I can do. I only hope that I will make a connection with just ONE person (I would prefer more than that). That would satisfy me.
Currently Reading: The Huntress by Kate Quinn
Currently Listening to: FKA Twigs, Caroline Polachek, and ALL music genres of the 90's.
Currently Learning: More music theory, some sound engineering, and still learning French! (I'm at Intermediate level and it's getting tough!)
Currently Watching: Re-watching "Offspring" on Netflix and also re-watching The Matrix...
And always full of hope, full of love, full of excitement and curiosity about what will happen next in this mysterious human existence! I am sending love and wishing everyone who reads this (and even those who don't) much needed peace during these uncertain times.
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It's that time again where I begin the planning phase of my next record. I was going to keep the title a secret. Build some mystery. Fuck mystery. It's called, "Lovesick". I am hoping it will be 8 songs. These are my favorite songs of mine (so far). I feel that they are some of my best. I used to think they were my best. I have since written a whole lot of (lyrics) songs that definitely compete as my best in the last 6 months. But back to "Lovesick"...
I am listening to a lot of music that has a dark, creepy, haunting, and ethereal sound. I want to go there. I'm aiming for lots of gut-wrenching layered vocal harmonies with a touch of electronica here and there. Mild, subtle effects. The main thing will be me singing my fucking heart out. Crooning like I've never crooned before. The vocal performance means more than anything.
After I settle on a musical direction, I will settle on who gets to co-produce / produce. Then I might do some demos and then just start recording. In the meantime, I need to raise funds to pay for all this high quality production. That involves me trying to sell what I have around my house. I'm not sure how far I can go with this method of fundraising. I am still hoping that there are folks out there who want to be a part of this process with me and support my art (through Patreon). Creating music is the best form of therapy I have right now. Grieving my mother's passing (last May) has put me in the darkest place I've ever been. Music is the hand that pulls me out. Sometimes I see it as her hand. My mother's support and belief in me has carried me through the years. I not only continue on with music because it's part of who I am, but I continue on to honor her. Which brings me to...
"Modern Romance". This has always been a powerful song for me. It was one of my mom's favorites. She gets a mention in it. I want to show everyone how I took the pain of being in an abusive relationship, and turned it into something beautiful. This was my way of coping, at the time. I wrote it in the midst of the realization that the relationship was toxic and I decided to stay because I wanted to - not because I had to. I was trying to reclaim my power the best way I knew how.
It is my hope to have it finished and released on Valentine's Day 2020. I consider it a "reject" from the "Lovesick" EP. It could fit there, but I think it deserves to be singled out and to stand on its own. I have one other song that I feel could go with the EP, but I don't want it there. So I may do that as a standalone single in the Spring.
Expect "Lovesick" later in the year. I don't want to rush this one. I will try to release new music and live videos, including covers in the upcoming weeks.
Oh, and the "Peter Pan" music video. We're not quite finished filming, but the footage we have so far is quite magical, indeed!
I am not in the right headspace to think about what to do with my music once it's finished. I am going to focus on making the best music as I possibly can and getting it recorded. I will share on social media and whenever I see an opportunity to share. I have become so bitter over the current music industry climate and how nothing is about art anymore. Creating and sharing in the most simple way is the only thing my weary soul can manage at the moment.
Currently reading: Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy
Currently listening to: Agnes Obel, Milo Greene, Billie Eilish, Camelia Jordana, 50 Shades of Grey Franchise Soundtrack (go ahead, make fun of me)
Currently learning: French
Currently watching: The Great British Baking Show
And slowly pulling myself out of a deeeeep depression. I saw the slivers of light through my tightly closed eyes. Now I'm fiercely tearing at the darkness to let more light through. My story isn't finished yet.